secretly I'm fragile.

today is the second day of December,

the second week of semester two,

I still didn't change,

and I'm not happy.

I didn't pay attention in the class,

I didn't even touch my tutorials and notes,

I didn't do my sketches,

I didn't change a bit.

people change, and so I do.

I know, they're talking about me.

I can see through their eyes,

the weird, judging eyes,

they're not the same as before.

things change.

and I'm learning to cope with this.

I haven't meet Shahir for almost or more than 2 weeks,

since Hari Raya Haji, if I'm not mistaken.

and we fight a lot these days,

we end up quarrel of unimportant things,

but then, the next day we're the perfect couple, again.

I know, we're just craving for each other..

and I'm the only one who cannot withstand the distance.

not much the distance, but the administration of his college.

sometimes, I wonder, why he choose to be in a military college, it sucks.

but then, I thanked Allah, and proud of what he had chosen.

otherwise, we will never be this strong.

I may never ask for forgiveness for what I've done,

cause apologize and 'sorry' are not my thing.

but I do regret our fight.

so. here, I'm officially ask you thousands of forgiveness,

I'M SORRY HONEY. I LOVE YOU AND I MISS YOU TOO!

and, I know I'm a sweet girlfriend ever. thank you.